crap crap crappity crap
May 25, 2010 | Posted in that's life.....
Sometimes things don’t go as planned. Other times they do. It’s just the way it goes. We all have a crappy moments – you know – you step in a puddle and your shoes get wet and it is only 3′C outside – so now you have a frozen foot, then you drop your keys down a drain and your umbrella turns inside out. You try and use your mobile phone to call for help – but the battery has conked out. Your four little children are having a a puddle party – but are wet to the core and you have no spare clothes. Crap. Things are just not going well. You deal with it.
Things are not quite going to PLAN.
My world came tumbling down on Friday at precisely 3:56pm. Mum called. She gave it to me straight. Livercancer.Monthstolive. If I say it super quickly – it may not be true. CRAP CRAP CRAPPITY CRAP. Saying it quickly didn’t help.
Needless to say, there has been alot of crying. You know what. Get your cameras out. Go and have fun. Drop absolutely everything that seems important (that really isn’t) and go and enjoy it. If your little tribe of people want a lolly after breakfast every now and then – let them.
I am just waffling. I am not looking for massive amounts of sympathy. Sympathy and tears isn’t going to help. (I tried crying. The cancer is still there. ) The cancer is there and it is going to do it’s thing. I just need some strength for my girls. Lots of strength. My Wilbur is out in the middle of the ocean feeling helpless watching and listening to my tears via skype.
We are going to enjoy our time and have fun and just be. BUT I need strength lots of it. Please send me some – and go and love your family.
Having said that – I realised that I have zero to no photos of mum. Definitely none with her and our girls. None with her and myself. We are going to fix that. We started over the weekend and spent some time just being together. They are perfect. Okay – so they may not be technically correct, blurry and overexposed – but they are of US. Enjoy – I certainly will.
I have no words… but I’ll send you all the strength that I can! Hugs to you my friend!!!
Oh Kylie.. what super crappy news!
Take photos… take SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many photos. I am super sad that we have only a handful of photos of my FIL with our girls (he died when they were 2)…. my girls really need those precious few photos to help them remember and make memories….
Sending strength, courage, and love in buckets….
Sending you my love and hugs.
crap is right
I’m so glad to see though that you guys are making the most of the time you have and are having FUN together, you cant change the news you recieved but you can enjoy to the fullest all the time you have left. Gorgeous photos!
Kylie, they are wonderful, you all look so happy and thats such an amazing day to have. I am thinking of you all. Its terrible that it takes something truely aweful to make us realise the importance of spending time with loved ones. Bxxx
I think the photos are perfect
Oh Kylie, I’m so sorry to hear that, The photos are absolutely awesome and I’m sure you will treasure them forever, I know the place that you are in and I feel your pain, she looks like an awesome lady…all my love and well wishes on this journey of yours at the moment xxx
Oh kyile, I am so sorry to hear about your mum. Lots of love to you all from me xx
i am loving all the photos you took. i think they are perfect. i’m so sorry to hear about your mmom. my FIL was diagnosed with leukemia a few weeks ago so i know what you are going through. you are right, tears do not help. i will keep you and your family in my thoughts & prayers. lots of love & hugz…….biancka
Kylie – -there are no words. I agree drop everything and take photos — HUGS
Hi Kylie,
Well, not that it will help any, but we are thinking of you also in Davis!! And your photo with the split legs of all of you looks great!
Lots of strength!
Anne
Oh Kylie, sending you strength girl. Loving those photos, take as many as you can, enjoy and love one another. I lost my Mum just over a year and a half ago without any warning. Its so very hard, hugs to you all.
Tears streaming down my face. No words, just sending you lots of strength and prayer. gulp. breathe.
You truly are a remarkable woman. So are your little girls. And I am sure so is your mom. I have no words to say how sorry I am. I am thinking of you and sending you all lots and lots of love.