I had a mini-meltdown last night. Unfortunately there was no-one to appreciate it – and by appreciate – I mean watch, assess and cuddle. So really – it was a wasted meltdown.
I have a big exam in four weeks, and I was melting down about how behind I am, how much I need to learn and the mini-tests between now and then. Basically I was freaking out. I decided to pull the pin on the subject and rang a beautiful friend for teary support. She of course was level-headed and wonderful, and said all the right things. Then I pulled myself together and posed a question in my Facebook external students study group that asked whether this subject ran in semester one, and that it was all too much for me – I felt I needed to quit whilst I was ahead. The girls and guy rallied around me in an instant – egging me on to keep going – if I stop now – I will definitely get an F against my name, but if I keep going, I much just surprise myself. Don’t try to learn everything, work ion past exam papers – they gave me many tips. I opened my books back up, and did the current online mini-test.
I aced it with a score of 19/20.
Thank goodness for open-book.
I am not sure that I am retaining much – but I think I may be doing better than I thought. Then someone chimed in and let me know that if I pass all the other assessments, I only need around 15 marks in the final exam for a pass.
I am finding my metaphorical feet.
Wilbur also gave me a tip – “wear a long skirt and write all the answers on your long legs”.
I informed him that NEVER in all my years had I EVER cheated in any assessment. I am not sure that now is the right time to start!!!! Plus – has anyone ever known me to wear a LONG skirt!!!
Bring. It On.
I went for a run yesterday – and finally after a year of achilles tendon recuperation – I found my feet. The real ones. 5km in 28:028. That number made me happy and cross. Cross becuse it was only 5 seconds off my best 5km ever over a year ago. Happy because I ‘interval-ed’ this one – run 3mins, walk 1min. Boom. Maybe there is a slow half-marathon in me yet for this year – possibly the Sussan Half Marathon. Anyone in?
NOTE: Some may wonder why it is that I am blogging and also complaining about having not time to study. Why am I not studying instead of blogging? The answer – its school holidays and I have four little people here that make it hard to study. I study at night when they are
knocked out with phenergen in bed. I can whip a quick blog post up in the day via iPad, or whatnot. I am finding it cathartic. I feel the need to get into a blogging groove, just so I can release the jumble of thoughts in my head, and make room for the A&P stuff that I need to retain.